Mixed Feelings...

Today my feeling a bit mixed up with a lot of thing. For now, only writing in here could I did. I have nobody for me to express my feeling. So here is the place that I can did it. I don't why today I'm feel all kind of feeling from one to one another. This is so distracting my self. Hurm, no one could understand what I'm feeling. I'm stressed. 

Firstly, I really disappointed with my dad a lot. He seem really not fair sometime toward take care about our feeling but to others people he react like his own child. So unfair. What make more I angry is when my brother wanted to drive car he never give. I know my bro doesn't have a license but same goes to my sis as well. But to my sis he a lil but more chill compared to my bro. Today, he gave to my sis couple that known as his new "adopted daughter" that also don't have a license at all to drive. Oh gosh, what the ****. I know that that girl was taking care of my sis right now and she the one who sleep at the hospital but its not the point he need to gave the care to her. I'm totally disappointed with him. But what to do, he think he has the right to tell n do whatever he like n want. Fine! Just do whatever u want. I dun want to care anymore coz I know I love my mum a lot more than u as my dad. U always said that we as your child always make u ashamed but dun u think that u also did many thing behind us that will embarrassing us as well. Sorry dad, I'm just say what the truth. Actually not about that thing make me feel disappointed about u, but that the one thing from another la. Hurm....

Secondly, I feel so miss to my lovely sis Ayu a.k.a Ryan. Since she's at the hospital I'm a bit lonely at home. No one could I shared a lot of thing together. She the one who close more with me rather than my bro. Get well soon my lovely sis. Miss u a lots. 

Third, I feel a bit lonely without the love one right now and bcoz of that I always remembering my ex's. Not all of them la. Just a few who really I love a lot. Maybe if I still stay at KL, I will not feel lonely coz I have many frens there that can always be with me. Miss my lovely frens there. Wait for me frens, I'll be back to KL soon. 

I think enough for now, too much already I guess. Next post coming right away. Peace yaww!!!